3 years ago marks a fairly large amount of time but this morning at 1:55 am you took the express route home to Jesus! It still feels like yesterday to us Brisan. We so deeply miss you guys. March 3rd was the last snow day of the 2013-2014 school year. Duncan was off with his little buddy Keagan at the library enjoying his day talking about wrestling with Jesus. Little did he or us know that those plans were shaping up for your homecoming a little after midnight.
We are so grateful that we were able to capture your last morning laughing and being “Brisan” on video. Although you were just getting better off a small eye cold and seemed a bit “weezy”, you sure were in a super happy mood leading up to your last earthly day.
Shortly after all was said and done for your time on earth, our main wall clock randomly stopped at about the same time as you went Home. Ironic? Still 3 years later we have not touched and replaced the battery. It feels like something we shouldn’t do!
Our heartaches in ways we cannot ever express in words with the void that we all feel deep down inside. The what if’s of what would life be like if this never was apart of our lives (NPC) for you, Parker, and the whole family. Our family make-up would be vastly different. We secretly wonder to ourselves what kind of things you’d like to be doing for fun as a kid?
We can take away a lot from the grieving we have experienced and will continue to do so. We realize that life is short in the grand scheme of all things through this experience of losing you and Parker.
Psalm 34:18 New International Version (NIV)
18 The Lord is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
We went to your favorite place today to eat “cocoons” and Anna ate “peas and carrots”!
Live like a King, Mr. Stinky!
With just celebrating your birthday a few weeks ago, the looming day of today is very burdensome for so many that loved you and Brisan. Me and mom have had a difficult time grieving in your physical presence being absent; this goes for Brisan as well.
Your precious dimples and award winning smile are so gratefully missed.
You put a “bookend” on this part of our families life story when your time was called at 1:55 pm in the early afternoon hours. It was so difficult to sing “Jesus loves me… this I know” while you were leaving here. Your were so peaceful looking in the midst of your body giving away from all the years of devastation by NPC.
We LOVE YOU.
Here is Parker's balloon release from Graveside.
(30 seconds in)
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Then I saw “a new heaven and a new earth,”[a] for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and there was no longer any sea. 2 I saw the Holy City, the new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride beautifully dressed for her husband. 3 And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, “Look! God’s dwelling place is now among the people, and he will dwell with them. They will be his people, and God himself will be with them and be their God. 4 ‘He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’[b] or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.”
It would be your 11th Birthday today big guy. How's the party going up there?!?!?!
We love and miss you so very much!
For being your birthday in the month of January, there sure is a lot that happened this month in our lives. You came into this world in 2008 and went “home” in 2015. Although physically you are not here, it seems to amplify your passing even more sharing that commonality of your birth month with your passing.
We find ourselves wanting to give you a big hug, kisses and just love on you and Brisan.
That feeling never stops.
Coming up on 2 years on the 23rd this month when you joined Brisan on the “ultimate vacation package”, it reminds us how surreal the thought of knowing you and Brisan are in Heaven throwing down with Jesus! It gives us a reminder of the promises we have been given to not lose faith. There is no more suffering from Niemann-Pick Type C and all the rotten stuff that came along with NPC that abbreviated your lives on earth.
Me and mom frequently feel that same shock that you two are no longer physically here. You both left lasting impressions in our hearts and minds.
I am honestly having a super hard time writing all the things I want to write for this.
Let's Sing Happy Birthday to Parker today!
This video is a small clip from 1-10-2009. I love the picture at the end because it is sort of a “Celebration move” to cap it off!
Here is to a great day celebrating with your bro and partner in crime!
Dad, Mom, Duncan, Rubee
August 27, 2016 – Today little Bubbas we will celebrate your 12th birthday in your memory. You’d be starting middle school and that just seems strange to even wrap our minds around the thought of that reality. That reality is also versed with the sadness that you are not physically here to celebrate. Me and mom are consistently reminded of all the memories of your personality and character. Your memories are engrained every where we look in our home.
Three simple words Brisan, “We Love You”.
The ability to physically give you a hug to express our indescribable love for you is a stark check on our emotions…
We will release 12 orange balloons and enjoy some cake. It makes us super sad and most of the time others around us are unable to see our true feelings because of how we have learned how to contain our feelings.
Sometimes at least.
Our hearts are deeply weakened with the jolting grieving we still feel. It’s a life long battle over our grieving for both you and Parker.
2.5 years have passed by which seems insane to think time has kept going on and we are inching further away from when you passed into heaven missing all the memories we took for granted early on that we could have together. We are reminded of the gift of “life” you received free of pain and suffering for you and Parker both.
Hope you have one heck of a party celebrating eternity with your bro up there!
Let's sing you Happy Birthday today!
Today was the day a year ago that you left us around 1:55pm in the afternoon. It was bittersweet, Parker.
We attempted to sing “Jesus Loves Me” as the Lord called your home as you took your last breathe. A very stark reminder of how “real” life is and how fragile it can be all at the same time.
Later today we will have a little get together in your memory to help celebrate your life and remember how much everyone cared for you and Brisan!
We don’t know what words to really write or say at the moment frankly, except We Love You Parker!
Thank you friends and family for being so kind and loving during our grieving!
Jenn's Facebook Post 1-22-16
Parker, aka Mr. Stinky…. today we are celebrating your 10th birthday without your physical presence but with a flood of memories of all the happy times and the sad times where we had to watch you suffer. At times it is hard to celebrate because selfishly… we would like to be able to hold you.
Mom, Dad, Duncan and Rubee hope that you guys are having a blast today! Your innocence while on earth was a blessing in many ways. Now you get to live out the promise that God has promised all of us that at times seems so far fetched because we just cannot imagine the infinite glory it will be. We also hope that you and Brisan are able to soak up all the activities that makes your heart full!
Your huge smile and dipples brought smiles to all! Your feisty attitude with that occassional teeth grinding when mad, really allowed your personality! We sometimes wondered how you would really react if Niemann-Pick Type C wasn't in your life. We thought this often about a lot of things for you both.
Your passing on January 23, 2015 was the “bookend” for you and Brisan’s physical story yet your story really just began. Your legacy and story will carry on for many years influencing many families when they read you and Brisan’s struggles. Although great pain in many eyes, you left a gift of hope and ultimate compassion. A true testament to the real peace that God provides, you looked like you were sleeping that day. No more pain, no more struggles and yet he calmly called you home during that time. The final minutes of earthly life showed us HIS presence only promotes peace and love. Your beautiful eyes were shown to us one last time.
Last year we had a Charlie Brown party for you where you seemed to be playing “possum” while you slept during it all. Shortly after everyone finally left you woke up and seemed well rested! We know you are a stinker! That is one of many reasons you’re our Mr. Stinky!
Little did we know that your time was so imminently near… just 10 months after Brisan passed. We know you missed him. Our hearts wept deeply and secretly inside because we knew that not many birthdays were left all while we were grieving for Brisan.
Thank you for being our son, a brother, and a friend to all whom were able to meet you. We love you Parker. Happy 10th Birthday, your first in heaven! Your celebration of life has to literally be “out of this world.”
We will celebrate you this weekend coming up big guy!